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Ya Allah…

Seandainya telah engkau catatkan… Dia milikku tercipta buatku… Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku… Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami…. agar kemesraan itu abadi… Dan ya Allah… ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi… Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini… Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…

Tetapi ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan… dia bukan miliku… Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku… Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku… Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan….

Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti… Berikanlah aku kekuatan… Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit… Hilang bersama senja nan merah… agar aku bahagia… Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya…

Dan ya Allah yang tercinta… Gantilah yang telah hilang… Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah… Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya…

Ya Allah ya tuhanku… Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu… Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan… Adalah yang terbaik buat ku… kerana Engkau maha mengetahui… Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini…

Ya Allah… Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku… Di dunia dan di akhirat… Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini… Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian… Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat… Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran… Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman… Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup… Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai… dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh….

Amin.. Ya Rabbal A’lamin.

aisey, cane nak cross neh.. cam ssh jer..

cane nih..cane nih..ish~

iyah2, awat la cam jauh semcam je nih..sampai ke x nih?

kena try gak! iyah..erh.. sampai2, tp lekat sket je ni..

waa... shell berat sgt, terbalik plak, gayat2.. waa

iyah3.. leh masuk gimnastik nih..

adei mak, sampai gak seberang...fuuuyh~

my mom told me dat this morning when i informed her dat i've got my braces on. hehe.. is it true?? seksa but seksi...uuu...i loike it..hahahaah...

seksa is seksa la kan..but i dont think it gonna look sexy.. braces is on my to-do list since im in standard 6. my parents were too busy at dat time and when i admitted to a boarding school, it made it harder for them to concern about my teeth. after all, they said im looking juz fine..

but lately, since last year, i received a lot of concern from the dentists that i met for regular check-up.. they would say:
cube awak sengih, or
awak xnak wat braces ke, or
awak tau x, seksok makin tua gigi makin ke depan, or again
sengih jap saya nak tgk, i recommend u wat braces k

so smua aku jap:
saya tau doctor, sy tgh kumpul duit skg. mmg dari kecik lg sy nak wat braces

and here i am wif braces on me...sgt glad, tp leceh la nak gosok gigi.. and also it's such a pain. seb bek da hbs smua presentation, cume tinggal wat conference paper je.. huhu

and oh, 2 days ago tgk adnan sempit - such a great movie.. gelak sambil tepuk2 tgn..heheh. but sgt menyampah ngan mat2 motor/ rempit yg 1 panggung ngan ktrg, drg nye sewit2, jerit2 .. ye ar, tu life drg, gile bangga koooooOt..ceh.. emosi terganggu sket. but still, it's a 4.8/ 5 star movie.. =)

around 8pm las nite..tetibe aku nye feeling sgt OFF, maka berlaku la dialog berikut:

maka, ktrg pun shoot to ipoh based on planning yg di buat less than 30mins. sporting kan ktrg.. =p

tp hagak kuciwa bile smua movie 'adnan semp-it' SOLD OUT. midnite pun sold, gile mantap ar mubi nih..

so, we end up wacthing OLD DOGS...and hell yeah this is a good one.. sgt bgs untuk terapi jiwe.. bak kate pepatah 'sup aym untuk roh'..haahah... seyes ktrg bantai gelak cam jantan..my god aku mmg gelak x hengat la..seb bek tepi aku ksg..cite tuh bes, lawak gile...mmg x rugi la tgk.. it's humours most of the time..wah, sgt lega pas lu\augh it out.. =p

n again.. HAHAHHAHAHHA~

juz to share the joy, stirf yg aku apply form utp has been approved. the amount is RM 15k woooo~ hihi... so, sng la sket nak wat project coz financially strong kan, kan.... =)

and oh im so penat today, running all those water quality test and yet the results were not as i expected..xpe2, next week wat laen... and also had a very intellectual discussion wif my sv.. sgt mencabar minda~ =p

but the, there are few important datelines this month:
20Jan2010
PG symposium - oral presentation

31Jan2010
ESTCON - submit full paper

wahhhh.... sgt x sbr to habiskan bulan jan sbb feb seems promising.. hihi~

p/s: mahu melencong ^_^

las nite, macam2 jadi to me... seyes rini bangun ngan lesu n x bermaya...

1st. kuar dinner and then being me,i again tertinggal kunci lam bilik. plan to climb through d window, but hujan lebat n also after reda, it would be very slippery..takot seyh.. so, plan A x jln, tukar plan B; call d fellow..tapi die x hangkat..hp kooot, mesti la die bwk merate2.. and da smua plan gagal, maka aku settle kan dr tido bilik jana. made a a yummy mushroom soup as a token of appreciation..hihi

2nd. at 2.38am las nite for which, yay, aku da tido~...my bro zul text me.. "zul terjage tido. mimpi ct kne mkn ke buaya. bringat la gapo2 tuh" . wowowow... dis doesn't sounds good at all... especially bile aku tringat org tua2 kate mimpi b4 sbh nih ade makna.. (ok, im googling after dis).. and being as penakut as i am...i cant sleep.. i even scared to blink my eyes..dem, my heart keep pounding likes it gonna explode. so, i switch on the light (seb bek jana tido mati and x terjaga).. till 4 baru i fall asleep becoz too tired of thinking and reciting zikrullah..

so, up until now, my spirit doen't boost up yet...the buaye-kind-of-thing still keep bothering me... T_T

E-MAIL DARI DIA:

Hey far-cit,

How are you?
Sorri sbb lame x contact/reply msg fb/lmbt reply email sbb hurm.. kinda busy jugak..
tengah berkejar2 for next promotion sbb aku nak balik after that, sbb abang aku kawen bulan 3..
doakan saye yek~~

so hows life? hows everythng?
skang korang tgh busy ape?
dengar2 ade symposium mende tah..
tapi aku xtau ni related ngn civil x..

p/s: update me!! =)


REPLY DARI AKU:

AK...u know what..dis whole day i've been thinking of u.. sbb.hmm..las nite i mimpikan u..
strange..
in my dream, u were crying a lot, saying dat u cant handle it anymore and u juz wanna quit from X. u asked from my permission, but i just kept quiet.. and u kept pushing me to say 'yes'..haiyhh...

so, i dont know, maybe tu hanya mainan tido kan..really hope u r doing fine. n u juz cant imagine how glad/relief i am to receive ur email after dat dream las nite..it really bothers me dis whole day...

congrate tu ur bro,his fiance canteq and look really nice~ =)
eh, ni fiance die yg u cite dulu2 ke? (i love gossips a lot..cant help it~ heheh)

fyi, symposium tuh cam oral presentation at the end of every sem.. mine would be on dis 20th.. sgt cuak coz examiner aku is dr shark n dr hasanain for which iday n inaz mase fyp dulu mmg nangis2 rite after presentation woo~ drg mmg combo yg sgt d takuti ramai.. tskk2~ n u, pray for me too k..

btw, aku br blk from dental nih, td psg steel band around 4 gigi geraham, ats n bwh... my speech is quite off, hadei..harap2 ms sympo, i da sesuaikan dr wif dis... n oh, im gonna put on the braces on d 21st..will become ugly betty sooner. hehe =p

wah, aku mmg pakar wat essay kan..ur fault~ nak sgt update.. n dear, tuh x include lg cite A, Z n I..heheeh~

AK, hope u gonna make it for d promotion, hope u can balik kg for d wedding and hope we'll meet again..take care~ =)

AND just remember..
It's simply a matter of doing what you do best and not worrying about what the other fellow is going to do.